Blogging

So right now I have the perfect time to blog. I have nothing I need to do, Zechariah is sleeping and Eric is running. But I have nothing to say. Annoying. Whenever I'm busy I have all these awesome blogs in my head but never the time to type them. Oh well. At least I'm typing something so I don't get out of the habit :) Well, I'll say this... I'm super incredibly excited to meet this little baby in a couple months and it'll be awesome. I guess that's all.

Worship

I love worshiping Jesus. More than anything else. It is so intense and intimate and freeing and I love it more than I can tell you. I love being so close to Him and knowing how loved I am. It's amazing how things happen for me during worship too. As I start to focus on Him and how He loves me, other things start to slip away. My guilt and shame are dissipated, my frustration and anger melt, my hurt and pain ease... and all of the sudden I'm just completely at peace and physically feel the love of Christ washing over me. If you've never felt these things during worship, I would encourage you to try something new. Maybe it's at home alone, maybe in a different worship setting, maybe just letting your shield down so God can touch your heart. For me it was being in a place where I can worship freely without judgement or fear. A place where I could be myself and just focus on God and not the people around me, the pastor, the building, or my own thoughts. I feel comfortable to just search out the face of Jesus and allow His spirit to pour into me. It's a beautiful thing.

If this sounds silly or "over the top" for you, I just want you to think about this for a moment:

Jesus sacrificed EVERYTHING for you.
Do you think He did that so you could clock in for an hour on a Sunday morning, toss up a quick prayer before meals and when things are bad, and be a "good person"?
NO! He desires intimacy and relationship with you. He thinks you are amazing. Everything about you is beautiful to Him. In His grace and mercy you are perfect and that's what He sees in you. Don't hold back from Him. His love is beautiful. It's scary when you've not experienced it before but once you do it is the best thing in the whole world. He wants you so bad. Whatever you've been holding back from Him, give up. Whatever needs to be gone so you can focus on Him, get rid of. Nothing is worth it if it's holding you back from REAL relationship and fellowship with your Father. Please let Him love you. You won't ever be able to turn back.

Great Saturday

So Saturdays aren't usually my favorite. Eric works a lot of the time on Saturdays and it always makes me sad that my husband isn't at home to enjoy and everyone else's are. (Not really, I know, but it seems like it). So today I decided that it was going to be a fun Saturday none-the-less. Zechariah woke up a little cranky and I was pretty tired and had a leftover headache from yesterday so I just knew that if we stayed home we'd end up miserable. So here's our day:

I skipped a shower and we were out the door by 8/8:30.

We went to the Rochester farmer's market where Anna was working. We walked around, bought some baked goods from the Breadwinner, some coffee and some produce.

Then we walked up to downtown Rochester on an endeavor to find Zechariah some shoes. To no avail. Even the expensive baby store didn't have any! But oh well. We walked a lot and enjoyed the beautiful, cool fall weather.

Then we got in a fender bender with a very polite, apologetic 17 year old boy. He was so polite that the interaction actually brightened up my day a little!

Then we went to Eric's work and brought him some yummy market food which he was very excited about. Then we told him we were in a fender bender which he was slightly less excited about. Then we came home.

Then Zechariah and I played outside for an hour and a half or so. He played and threw rocks and sticks and I weeded and cleaned up the some of the gardens for fall. It was great.

Then we went for a walk on the sidewalk (he LOVES walking on the sidewalk) to the tool rental place around the block to see if they rent out lawn rollers. They don't but Zechariah had fun. They had a counter that flipped up and Zechariah walked right under it and hung out with the guy back there for a while looking at cars and stuff. Zechariah felt very cool and was even offered a job :)

Then it was time to come home and Zechariah had a yummy lunch of organic macaroni and cheese and milk.

Now he's in bed taking a nap and I will be too when I'm done with this post.

I love having wonderful mommy/baby days. Not every day is like this but I love the ones that are. I love seeing my little guy learn and have fun. And his new word today is stick. It's very cute :)

Reading...

So Eric was gone all day and evening today (pooey) so I had a lot of time alone. Near the end of the evening I grabbed my Bible and started reading. I read 2 Corinthians 4-7 mainly. Here are a few favorite things:

Treasures in jars of clay: I love how that is said. A jar of clay is nothing fancy. At all. In fact, a long time ago, that's what people would put valuables in to hide them because no one would suspect it. (Like hiding your money in the flour cannister). So we are the jars of clay. Nothing fancy. God's truth is the treasure. The Bible says "For we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us." I just love it. That's how we can know it's from God. Because we are not good enough for it. Awesomeness.

I also love 4:8-9. A lot. It's so beautiful and descriptive of our Christian walk. "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed." I just love that. Those times shape us so much but God doesn't let it take us too far. Nothing is beyond His grace. I love this. It's so strengthening.

And 5:13. I LOVE THIS! "If we are out of our mind it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you." I adore that. God certainly does not call us to be carnal in our decisions or logical, rational or in our right mind. That makes life so exciting. I think I'm good with being out of my mind for the sake of God. He's so awesome. I am crazy for Him.

2 Corinthians 6:3-13... Go read it right now. It's amazing. I can't really even talk about it.

I love when his eyes twinkle.

And they do that a lot. I completely melt inside. I love it. When he sees something cool that he hasn't seen before his eyes start to twinkle and he says "Woah" or "Wow" in this quiet, mesmerized kind of voice. It's completely endearing and I love it more than I can tell you. I become a big pile of mush inside. It's amazing. It's just that look of joy and newness in his eyes and I can't even look at anything else. My son is amazing. Completely amazing. He is sweet. I want you to know that so much. I love rocking his sweet little self to sleep. I love snuggling with him. I love when he lays his head on my chest and I know I'm his mama and he loves me. I love when he runs to me and climbes on my lap or runs into my arms for an embrace. I love that he lets me kiss his perfect little lips about a million times a day. I love stroking his hair. I love his soft little feet. I love that child. Unfortunately love is just not a big enough word for him and I.

I think I'm a movie star

So my husband is hilarious. We have a ton of fun and when we're alone our conversations are nothing less than completely entertaining. It's amazing how often I feel like whatever just happened could have totally been a scene in a movie. But no one saw it! I almost feel bad hogging all the humor! But you can't really retell something so spontaneous. It loses so much. Honestly though, Eric is one of the funniest people I know. I love it. I love my movie life. I'm thinking romantic comedy with some dramatic scenes. But really. He makes my life that entertaining. I love my husband.